My letter to PJ

Dearest PJ,

Its an evening filled with fun, laughter, singing, dancing, friends and family... all the things you love...
I look around and i catch a glimpse of you... watching us...
I see you smile and raise a toast....
Can anyone else see you?

You tell me to hold back those tears one more time... you are here... with me and with all of us....
So clearly... like the last time we spoke....

We sing songs you used to sing, and I can hear you sing too....
Can anyone else hear you?

Did I forget to tell you how much I have missed you? How lucky I was to have a father figure, a friend, a confidant in one person? Did i forget to tell you i miss our long conversations? The taste of the food you make, because no one else can ever cook like that! Did i forget to tell you that when you scolded me, I learnt some valuable lessons in life.

That the last time we spoke, I wish we had spoken longer..... Did i ever tell you that?

I have not had words in all these months to express my loss.... But today I see you here... with all of us, I know my family is complete and will always be.
I can tell you all of this today, I tell you that I have missed you.... I have missed talking to you....

And you just smile and answer, that you have always been here, I just never looked.

A teardrop still rolls down my cheek... as we exchange a goodbye... only to meet again, very soon.

I know you are here.... in a place not very far away....

Love,
Aanchal