Thursday, January 28, 2010

Fearless: an obsessive, self absorbed post. I so love it :)




It has been two weeks today and time seems to have just vanished. There was so much I had planned to do and so many people I had planned to meet and it hasn’t gone that way. Nevertheless it has been beautiful.
I haven’t exercised (so long eye twitching Baba Ramdev!), I have slept till late and haven’t gone on long walks.
I haven’t shopped, I haven’t well, met any good looking / interesting men (where in the world are they??)
So what have I don’t in the past few weeks?
I sat on a camel. So, what the bloody big deal? (I can almost hear your mind)
Most of the times in life you fear something so much that after sometime you forget why you started fearing it in the first place.
Fear has that amazing capacity to overpower everything you believe in and crumble your insides as if they were ashes hanging from a dying cigarette.
For some reason a camel ride has scared me to death ever since the first time I tried sitting on one. I remember screaming and shouting till they had to get me down.
So what made me sit on one finally? Liberation perhaps.
An act to tell myself that if I could get over this perhaps I could get over a lot more.
Anyhow, it’s not such a great deal (As long as a camel doesn’t sniff your hair of something) its fun actually and quite the feeling of being in the film ‘The Mummy’ (one of my top weirdest films)
Would you believe me if I told you this silly thing acted as a catalyst to so much more?
I could erase and delete everything that needed to be eradicated from my life and my mind. Most of them silly fears tying me down!
I realised or rather was made to realise by awesome RT that my fears were holding me back from having so much fun ( read – casual, harmless flirting : a forgotten art ) Well, a couple of lessons later, I’m getting there.... with the right words and the right things to do.
Whoever said that it was a bad thing didn’t know what he/she was missing in life! I believe (especially at the brink of downhill thirty) that it is what will keep us young forever.
Being in your cosy shell for the fear of everything new only makes you a sad loser. There is a certain reason for trying things that are alien. And that my friend, is growth.
Even if they are things you don’t believe in, they will ultimately only reaffirm your faith in the thing that you do.
So I’m off today to meet a bunch of strangers with my lovely, beautiful, divine girlfriends. (What would I do without them?) This is something I never thought I would do, but then I never thought I would fear it too.
If I had my choice I would carry that camel with me everywhere to remind me that my capacity as a human being is limitless, the strings of which I hold and often tend to forget that.
Here’s to everything new and unknown and to all those people I still have to meet and all the experiences I still need to have.  Here’s to the times when we will meet and cross our paths and smile or maybe frown and perhaps go our own way. Here’s to everything beautiful.
Here’s to me too!
Cheers !!!

9 comments:

Aarti said...
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Aarti said...

What can I say.... I remember the camel ride and how you felt before and after it and feel priveleged to be present during your experience.
Couldnt agree more about everything you've written.
Fear is the only thing that ever holds us back, fear that is cultivated by people and things around us.
Our mind is as strong as we want it to be, and so are our fears. As long as we can lay our hand on our heart and tell ourselves everything is going to be ok, we can overcome anything.
Here's to a fearless and amazing life hopefully full of unexpected surprises that will keep us learning

Aanchal said...

and they are on our way remember - 2010,ALL IZZZZ WELL !!!!! ha ha ha ha
its our year girl, im glad in the early stages things might be rough so we know that the coming months will be so damn awesome!
:)
thank you for everything! im so glad i shared these experiences with u!

The Learner.... said...

lol...
the camel ride and the ALL IZZ WELL mantra,.. nothing beats it though... hence...
hence honth ghuma, seeti baja, seeti baja ke bol...AALLL IZZZ WELL

Aanchal said...

ha ha ha .... how can i forget your reactions smriti!!!

Kunjubi said...

Anchal::
This is not an appreciation of this particular post, but for the whole of your blog. Whatever you have put in there hit the bulls eye on the seat of emotions- the heart. and touch, inspire and brood over it. Write whatever you want .It is like moonlight or music...Congrats.

Kunjubi said...

Anchal::
This is not an appreciation of this particular post, but for the whole of your blog. Whatever you have put in there hit the bulls eye on the seat of emotions- the heart. and touch, inspire and brood over it. Write whatever you want .It is like moonlight or music...Congrats.

Aanchal said...

@ Kunjubi - thank you so much for such beautiful comments. I am truly humbled and I hope I can continue touching hearts of everyone around.
Keep reading and commenting :)

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