I grew up believing in fairy tales. When I saw him for the
first time entering a coffee shop looking for me, I knew I had found my prince
charming. He was everything I could have asked for and more. I fell head over
heels and was swept away even before our first date ended six hours later.
I had never been this high and happy. I was so involved in
my blissful state that I didn’t anticipate a fall – ever.
So one day, out of the blue when he sat on my couch and told
me he was leaving me, a sense of numbness spread across my entire being. I
could not understand the reason for this sudden track change.
When someone you love decides to walk away from you, the
world under your feet shifts. Cracks don’t just form around you but in your
very core. When people die, they are gone for real. You have to accept the
inevitable. But when someone choses to become a stranger – it always lingers,
as you never really know why.
A relationship that once bought out the best version of
yourself suddenly makes you a horrible person. Lost, unaware and in no control
of the situation, you become someone you cannot relate with.
I spent the last one-year in a bubble. I took a thick duvet,
covered my face and just lay in the warmth. But eventually I started to pick up parts of myself that lay
scattered and tried to join them together.
As it slowly vaporizes from your life, a relationship
teaches you a lot about yourself and everything around you. I experienced
denial, lots and lots of anger – at him and then at myself, pain, hurt,
acceptance, forgiveness and finally, a true sense of gratitude.
Even though it was not my longest relationship when measured
in time, it perhaps was the deepest. Getting in it taught me a lot and getting
out of it, taught me even more.
Break ups can be hard. For the ones going through the pain,
I wish you all the strength. It is not easy but I can tell you this –
Even though today seems bleak, there will be a tomorrow when
the sun will shine.
You can walk in the shadows for a long time but one day, you
will have the courage to walk in the light again.
Each day will make you stronger and smarter. There is no
need to be hard on your self.
You will make new friends who will welcome you in their
lives without judgment or doubt.
The moment you start letting go and shutting one door, new
windows will open.
Slowly but surely, memories will fade. You will visit them
rarely and even though you will wonder if that person still exists, new
memories will form.
Life will pass by in a moment and when it ends, you will
smile. Because even if was for a brief moment, you found a love that shifted
the world under your feet.
You will never forget the one you loved, but you will find
reasons to love again.
And then one day, someone will sit on the same couch and
tell you what you have always wanted to hear. That day, I hope you trust love
just one more time again*.
(*Inspired by the
beautiful quote by Maya Angelou – “Have enough courage to trust love one more
time and always one more time.”)
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